4.22.2008

three years ago...


i thought i was a hopeless romantic. then i realized that my third wedding anniversary was last saturday (4.19) and all i managed to do was send steve a text when i woke up. i didn't even call him.

when i think back to three years ago and what i imagined for the future, i have to admit there have been a lot of surprises. we've been through a lot together. a lot. obviously the biggest obstacle being my diagnosis of MS which reared its ugly head only two short months after we sealed the deal. my dad joked with steve at the time that he might actually let him out of the deal since steve ended up with "damaged goods." funny, yes. but at times i still feel so guilty that the timing of it all seemed like a nasty trick on steve's end. "through sickness and health," right? anyway, when i look back at the optimism and the dreams we shared for the future i can't help but become a little teary-eyed. alright, "weepy" is a better term. oh, to go back to those days. i wasn't naive; i knew we'd have hard times ahead; i knew we'd struggle financially; i knew we'd have hurdles to jump. i just never imagined all of it would come at the same time and with such haste.

what am i saying? i'm just saying that the last three years have been pretty stinking hard. harder than i ever imagined. BUT i'm so glad that i've had stevie by my side to get through it all. i don't tell him enough, but i love him. I LOVE HIM. I love you, Bevie.

6 comments:

buddens said...

I can't imagine having something like MS diagnosed at ANY point, let alone that quickly after getting married. Hopefully you're just getting the super rough stuff out of the way and making room for some smooth sailing years in the future. Happy Anniversary!

gina bina said...

Congrats on 3 years! Reading this just made my eyes fill with years. I don't know of any marriage that hasn't suffered numerous ups and downs, but it's also the one thing in life worth fighting for and someday that will make all the hard times worth it.

(I know you're making fun of me right now for being cheesy)

But that's what you get for being friends with me. Happy Anniversary!

Diane CaƱate said...

Dang. I really tried to remember your anniversary this year and blew it again! Happy 3 years!

volcom_LC said...

jolly anniversary! its nice to have an opportunity to remember that even through all of the crap, you still love each other something fierce. and ditto to buddens. seriously, ryan and i had to put years 1-3 behind us well before we started to actually get a chance to celebrate building a life together. here's to eternity!

Laurie said...

The good stuff wouldn't be as good without the bad stuff being oppositely bad.

bulkleybunch said...

(i'm at ohs thus the comment) i suck i'm so sorry i haven't been there for you more than a once in a while vent session or desperate viewing. i love you little (beautifully with child) lizzy and your balding but beautiful hubby fen! please know i would do anything for you and nashy boy if he'd get over hurting my feelings!! :) your family loves you and we're in this for the long haul. and fen you better give your wife some props for that post. how sweet! loves!